growth is inevitable.
The clock ticks so fast,
that one minute you’re a clueless
son or daughter and the next minute
you’re a young adult,
whereby the truth hits you from
There comes a time where you
have sleepless night feeling lonely,
you feel a need for something bur
you really don’t know what it is.
A time where you think too much
and you’re sensitive
your mind becomes a battleground
all you do is imagine the end of the
yet all there is, is the beginning of
a habit which exalts sadness
thinking that such a state would be
a remedy for all our worries.
Yes it will help but for a time.
Dear future me,
Worrying is sometimes regarded as the pure destruction of hope, hopes built in forever are brought down by an arrow of worry. I know in the past, you felt like shading your skin and becoming whole again. You felt like you were misplaced in this vast world with no place to go, to hide from the conundrum of voices in your head and much worse the things seen, now epitaphed in your mind.
The world is vast, you haven’t seen much. Maybe you are being protected from ruin, things you’ll never recover from. I wonder how you’ve coped with the loss of people that you loved the most. Does the hole ever get filled?
Don’t forget to live even when you’ve got all you’ve ever dreamed of. It so happens that at such moments sadness tends to creep in and destroy every good built. Don’t let your heart feel unfed. Feed it with the fruits of the Holy Spirit.From love to kindness to humility. Most importantly let prayer be its stronghold.
Hey, don’t give up on changing the world even when you see how complicated it is, the weirdness of its creation and evolution of things. People struggle with a lot, you’ll see that in documentaries or even in proximity and you might not want to forgive yourself, cry if you must. Your tears might be the remedy. But cry to God.
Delight in the farming of flowers. It will calm your mind in pruning and yield patience in you in the waiting of their blossoming. Thence you’ll learn to cultivate significance in the things of the world, whether old and new.
Don’t wait for the things or people you love to exit your world so as to awaken you on the importance of love.
Guess i was crazy,
overwhelmed by the perception of love.
I was high all the way that i couldn’t
realize what i was driving myself into,
as every moment felt like heaven
a relief from the burdens that calloused
my soul, my mind
I’m worried that you didn’t get to know
me better, what i was going through
all the while
i can’t stop imagining what if you were
the only person i knew in a deserted world
and you wavered me just like that.
For a time i just wanted to believe,
fought a war within to convince myself
i was almost there
only to realize i was headed in the wrong
I swear i wanna write about flowers,
about places, food, events
but everytime i think of writing
all i wanna do is write about you.
It’s a seasonal disease with no cure.
I’ve always wondered, when the stars
in all their glory are gonna fall on us
but the thought of falling in love with you
chips in, out of thin air maybe?
Is the sound of music any different with
the sound of love?
Or when do silent thoughts get amplified?
I want you to know my heart feels something
If only there were unseen wires signaling
And if eyes tell when someone is craving
for love then mine told a bartender last night
and he just had the right drink.
I hope the petals from our rose of love
If they start falling, i pray that i’ll be there
to pick the last magic petal.
I promise that I’m a book worth reading
not a page filled with regret
and the cover, the cover is beautiful.
I didn’t start with a jar of hearts
but rather ‘i said i wouldn’t hook
up with him then i did again jar.’
which deserves a lot of money
When he said he’s moving on,
my pen stopped writing as
i felt the urge of peeing
i couldn’t breathe properly either
my stomach was really heating up
my heart racing and thumping
I had to stand up and hold on
to the windowsill
looking up the sky
where does my help come from?
Love knows no age.
I never thought i could love someone
as young as i am,
prisoned within its walls and i can’t
‘I was joking, I’ve loved you all along
just wanted to test if you felt something
Silly, he makes me cry and giggle all
my superman, ladies and gentlemen.
Henceforth, my soul will be still
for whatever i searched for, i found.
I found the right person with
the right key.
I’m not the one trying to sleep
It’s just another way of nursing
My heart aches, I’m not sure
how long I’ll be reseting my heart
after every false alarm of a love
passing me by akin a stranger,
Strange love, i know
Goose bumps and gasps before
uttering just three letters that form
the word yes
I say yes, because i don’t want to give up
maybe this is the man i need
I say yes because i want to know what falling inlove feels like, wanting to wake up to goodmorning texts and probably relate to love memes
But mostly I’m always looking for a friend to talk to,, to one day speak out loud my thoughts to someone who cares
I say yes because i want someone who detects, detects when I’m lying that I’m okay, being okay kills,
to let him detect when I’m not lighting up his world enough,
When my flames burn low, i hope he can be the ignition i need
I say yes because it’s scary being alone when everybody else has someone,
just part of the pressure,
going with the flow.
Sometimes i end up settling for what i don’t deserve,
the question remains what do i deserve?
Yet they leave without saying goodbye
they just stop talking and texting,
my phone stops beaping randomly
And then I’m quick to judge it,
thinking it’s the enemy
The story never ends, does it?
Someone comes along
the cycle continues, this time everything
is different, it’s just that my heart isn’t
Maybe he wants to feel the touch
of raindrops on rose flowers
Rose flowers bleed too.
I danced the night away,
my body revolved to the
my soul was freed,
I shade off parts of me
that i couldn’t acknowledge,
maybe they weren’t mean’t to be.
Breaking off bits by bits,
An erosion of thoughts,
An evolution of a new body,
Revival of the fire in my soul,
How alive did i want to be
the sound of my heart
beat proved way more?
I hesitate to reciprocate
It is a disease that terrorises
my dreams to bits,
The mixologist says,
said, assumes, i need medicine
You are the drug.
He saw me sneaking glances
your way and said,
i found my way to the cure.
I don’t know if two broken hearts
I still don’t know if i’m
mistaking pitiness for love,
the two are brimmed with confusion
if i’m drunk with lust then am doomed
and when drunk in love, i become blind to wrong
I doubt that you are an answer to
any of my questions,
Do anwers present themselves?
Chained to your love
and nothing can set me free.
Time can’t and i, myself
can’t turn to any other love
i’ll be tangled up
thrusting back to you.
I bet your charms have worked.
I keep calling out your name
in my dreams, it seems this
nightmare of a love is stuck
on the palates of my mouth
and enamels of my teeth
but also in the depths of my mind
where i thought this love would
remain hidden from.
If we choose to burn this love,
it will ignite this fire in our loins
I wonder if this love will die
from hunger in the deserts
Who’ll feed it?Who feeds it?
Thus , lover,
to the sound of love
amidst the desires of our hearts
that creates such a beautiful harmony.
Let me drown in this love
deeper than the seas
wide enough to accomodate us.